Hikikomori: Your stories about refusing to leave bedrooms

Hikikomori: Your stories about refusing to leave bedrooms

One of the more touching stories in this article, which describes most of my high school experience:

This describes me, aged 11-16. As a child I had always been happy to play alone, but had never been wary of social interaction. At secondary school, I was bullied. I didn't feel I could stand my ground, so I withdrew. I didn't want to spend time with anyone. Not even my family. I would spend hours in my room watching TV, cleaning it, reading, drawing, listening to music - so long as it didn't require speaking to people. The fact that I was coming to terms with being gay was also a major factor, and I felt the world didn't want to accept me. On the odd occasions that I went outside, I was terrified about being recognised. I went to great lengths to avoid this, wearing hats, hoods and sunglasses. I broke out of the cycle when I started to find friends who would invite me out, and the bullying subsided. Once I had a social life I could be confident in, I no longer needed or wanted to stay in my room all the time. That period of my life has had a lasting impact on how I behave. I still feel the need to withdraw into my own company, although not to an extent that is abnormal. I sometimes lack confidence, and have paranoid thoughts about what people think of me. It seems I am fortunate that I managed to break free. Tristan, Bristol, UK

I eventually found the strength and courage to start making friends outside of school, which lead to my coming out.  When I did that, I was able to bolster my circle of friends and support system.  I still have issues with withdrawal, so don't let my gregarious and enthusiastic facade fool you.  Until I know you and feel safe with you, people only get to know the sides I need you to know about me.